Wednesday, April 04, 2007

My inspiration chair

You know when I write really fabulous blog posts? In the glider in Kiernan's room while I'm nursing him or rocking him. They are fabulous! I figure out exact wording, themes, topics. And then, I can't remember a single one when I'm in front of the computer. Well, really, that's always the way, right?
Currently, I am sitting in the living room in disbelief. Kiernan went down for a nap about 75 minutes ago. Since then, he has woken up three times. Each time I've just listened to him make some noise and then suddenly all is quiet again. He keeps putting himself back to sleep!!! Are we amazed? Impressed? Overjoyed?? Oh ya! :) The last two nights have been relatively good with sleeping too. It's so nice to get a break from the rough nights!

Yesterday I was away at an event for most of the day, and it was great. Part of what was great was just to be away from doing baby stuff all day! I think I feel a lot of guilt for enjoying being away from my baby so much, but I think I just need to accept that I'm not really meant for being a stay at home mother so by the time I have to go back to work in August, I'll really be ready. By having time away, I have a lot more energy to enjoy the time we do have together. Still feels a bit crappy though.

Which brings me to another thought. I think there are quite a few people who feel the way that I do when it comes to wanting time away; who want to work and not be home with children full time. This must have always been the case, no? So how did women deal back in the days when all women were expected to stay home? Maybe it was easier because there were more moms home to spend time with? Maybe it was easier because drinking cocktails during the day was more common? ha ha.

Ok, he's woken up a fourth time... will he go back to sleep again?? I'm thinking probably not. But I'm still pretty thrilled with what I got. Better go get him now :)

3 comments:

Airen said...

I am the opposite kind of woman. I want to stay at home, I'd be a SAHW (stay at home wife) if I could justify it. As it is, I practically am one with my work schedule.

Vicky said...

What I would'nt give for a cocktail right now. That sounds great. Is 8:20 too early? A glass of wine would actually be nice too.

Jennifer said...

I wonder what SAHM's did before blogging!